I hate making up my mind!!

Why does everything have to be made with a decision? Wheather or not I should. I really dont like making up my mind and mostly when the person it's going to effect most is me... I always seem to think about it for days and days and usually you can tell when I have something to make my mind up about cause I'm not me during this time. I'm just not with it, time seems to move slower and sometimes I think I can stop it but no I don't have that power just yet. Nothing bets siting in the shower room and listening to the water run. Some reason i find this so calming and it helps me think... I know weird ae! But its so true, this is the one time i can think and think to myself without anyone to bother me. Im not the person who doesn't think things through when I'm given an opportunity... I some reason come up with everything that can go wrong and every single little thing that will make life so much better even if it is shit and hopeless. Life is life and there are always going to be shit days and good days no matter where I go, live, move or whatever. But why does my mind think about every little aspect! It's just so annoying cause then I can never make my mind up!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR !!!