12 Days?!?!?!?

Mhmmmm feels like my last week here but sadly it is not, i have another 7 extra days of school and I am seriously dreading it. I can't stand the people around me anymore and seem to keep to myself and work which is extremely odd for me cause well I just usually don't work even more odd it's term three... the bum term where we hardly do or learn anything but more or less stress about the coming term. Term Four. The last term for the year, the last term for being a yr 10 in auzz and skipping onto yr 12 next year. So I miss out on being called a year 11 which is kinda sad but oh well there's always the next life. My 16th is coming up soon and well not really looking that much forward to it... as usually exam week likes to come and destory my birthday but that isn't that I'm not looking forward to my birthday but more that i can't spend it with the people who mean most to me. This weekend was a tough one. Not allowed to eat beacuse I was doing the 40hour famine woop woop!! and I did it, and I didn't cheat too! I really got to give a pat on the back to the kids in africa and other places that don't have the life they should where food is just a normal part in life that they don't have to think about when there next meal is. After just about my 2nd hour I was dreading it, watching a movie and no food!

D.a.n.g.e.r.o.u.s. A.n.i.m.a.l.s

Who said it was Wednesday today?

Thats all i feel like saying. . .

Still waiting

Tuesday and 18 days into August? 18 more days till Im on that plane but 18 days can either be extremely long or extremely short. Bored at school with nothing to do but actual pay some attention and class and try to keep the new information in my brain long enough so that it does process through and stay.

I hate making up my mind!!

Why does everything have to be made with a decision? Wheather or not I should. I really dont like making up my mind and mostly when the person it's going to effect most is me... I always seem to think about it for days and days and usually you can tell when I have something to make my mind up about cause I'm not me during this time. I'm just not with it, time seems to move slower and sometimes I think I can stop it but no I don't have that power just yet. Nothing bets siting in the shower room and listening to the water run. Some reason i find this so calming and it helps me think... I know weird ae! But its so true, this is the one time i can think and think to myself without anyone to bother me. Im not the person who doesn't think things through when I'm given an opportunity... I some reason come up with everything that can go wrong and every single little thing that will make life so much better even if it is shit and hopeless. Life is life and there are always going to be shit days and good days no matter where I go, live, move or whatever. But why does my mind think about every little aspect! It's just so annoying cause then I can never make my mind up!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR !!!

Counting Down

So its Tuesday... Today was alright and now im siting on my living room floor tryn to watch my fav tv show 'talkin about your generation' but I cant seem to focus and so far i've missed the whole show. This show is just my great tuesday pleasure coz its so funny!

3 weeks 3 days!
Yes I'm still counting.. and will till it friday the 5th and omg Ive come up with a project in india. Im so excited and can't wait to get out of school on a plane(dreeding the 9 hour flight and NON STOP!) but hopefully movies and music will smooth my way on the plane.

Cheeky Smiles in the Cold
From a distant
I open my eyes
Squint
Is that a smile?
No of course
She never smiles
Or
Is she scared of people seeing her happy?
Is she scared to show emotion?
Or
Maybe she just doesnt like to smile
But
She smiles in the cold

2 Weeks, 7 Days and 168 Hours. . .

Im simple words as to the name for this is 4 Weeks till Leh! Slowly counting as the days pass making it feel so much shorter and closer even though 4 weeks can be a long time once i really think about it, it isnt really...
Forth week of school is over and man it was a long week.. even though I did manage to get one day off by pulling a sicky. It's a long weekend and it started out great with renting 3 movies and watching them all in one night. The Changeling was amazing and there is something with men in suits i just love and that classic old style way of living AND OHMYGOD I am an addict when it comes to cartoons.. yes I know how childish but who gives a fuck, I certainly dont. Space Chimps was funny and did not dissappoint.. but at some point you were wondering wtf did this have to do with the movie but soon was to find out. Andy Samberg played the voice of Ham the third and you have to admit the name killowallowizoosayhooha is amazing isnt it!

August so far?
Not much every happens in August besides the cold and the stress of waiting for September to come fast.. So far it had been a relaxing month with me actually paying attention in class and doing work!

Does Anything Ever Last . .

Does anything in this life time every last forever. .
I sit there in the pile of rake leaves
Thinking, Staring, Difting to a place where good things last
But maybe there not meant to last forever
Why would we want something that would last forever
There would be no reason to want
No reason to need
No reason to beg
Only reason to be greedy
But I am greedy.. I want things to last
But I rather have them dissappear over time
Fade away into my distant life

If everything did last, I think I would only enough it for 17 seconds
With the remaining infinate seconds I would lying on the floor woundering
Does anything ever last?